I want an exciting life
A life stretched to its fullest potential
Used to what it was created to achieve
God has a destiny for me
I believe communication is the key to successful relationships
And relationships is the key to life
Without love, all this will be impossible
I value a friend above performance
My close friends must be people who are committed to progress
They must have a proven character
They are people of integrity
They must be people with Big dreams and actions just as big
HAHA
Now, here's something new on my blog. my want list!
I figured that I should start wanting stuff and ejoying my life. Fed up with always compromising.
So here goes.
WANTS(needs in fact)
~ 2 new good zildjian crash cymbals (got 1 already!)
~ iron cobra double pedal
~ new tama full drumset
~ clavinova electric piano
~ fender bass amp ~ super good pair of in-ear earphones ~ new leatherback nkjv (slightly smaller than A4) size Bible
~ GTA San Andreas
~ GTA 4
~ New fast laptop ~ Car with petrol paid for
~ Maybach Exelero *find out more* It costs USD 8million
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Saturday, June 30, 2007
TRANSFORMERS!!!!!!
ITS THE BEST BEST BEST MOVIE EVER IN THE HISTORY OF MANKIND!!!!!
IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED IT, YOU HAVEN'T SEEN A MOVIE!!
ITS THE BEST OF THE BEST OF THE BEST!
OMG, THE ROBOTS! AND THE ACTION! AND, EVERYTHING IS JUST SO AMAZING!!!
I'M SO HIGH RIGHT NOW FROM THE SHOW! I WAS SPEEDING ALL THE WAY WHILE DRIVING THE GUYS AND MYSELF HOME!!!!!!
LIKE CINDY SAID, YOU CAN GO RUN NOW, AND YOU'LL RUN LIKE CRAZY!
IT WAS DIRECTED BY STEVEN SPEILBERG! HEARD IT WAS HIS LAST MOVIE, BUT IT'S REALLY THE BEST! HE IS THE KING!
THE WHOLE MOVIE HAD THE MILITARY, MORE SECRET THAT TOP SECRET, COOL CARS RACING, COOL GUN BATTLES, ROMANCE, FIGHTER PLANES, PETS, EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOOD IN A MOVIE! NOT TO MENTION, ROBOTS!!!!!
I'M STILL SO HIGH THAT I CANT BE BOTHERED TO OFF MY CAPS LOCK!!
ARRGH!!~!
MY FAV TRANSFORMER, THOUGH HE WAS BAD. HAHA. TOO BAAD I CAN'T FIND A NICER PIC. CLICK IT TO FIND MORE STUFF ON AMAZON.
AND I'M SO GONNA MAKE A NEW SKIN, A TRANSFORMERS SKIN!
You won! 2:42 AM
Friday, June 29, 2007
I was pleasantly surprised. just 2 days ago, my secondary school classmate Melisa suddenly added me in msn and started chatting to me! She never used msn or email, and according to her, she started only when she went to Thailand for a 6week field study that she used it, and even had a blog to keep her family back home updated! haha!
She was the only other classmate who was christian in my class. So we used to stay back after school and during recess in class to chat, and sometimes play the guitar. Probably because she was also the vice chairperson, and had to make sure everyone was out of the class before she could lock the doors.
She's in Uni now! And I'm still taking my time in poly. She really a powerful woman. I guess that's her character. Rather playful, but in a serious way. She'd manipuate her conversations carefully and also quickly bring you to a surrender if you tried anything funny. She was from the debate team. Probably thats why she was chosen for it. I was chosen to be the chairperson for west zone debates. Haha.
Someday she'd be a politician I guess, maybe the first female prime minister of our nation. With such wit and intelligence. I'm really glad to have known her. A dear friend always, in my eyes, and I hope she treasure's this friendship as I do.
Talking about the past on msn, she made me re-think and encouraged me quite abit. Interesting how God works. It was the day when I felt down and was thinking of making some really huge decisions, and God sent 3 people to remind me and encourage me. Hers is the most dramatic. Having her come on msn is like gravity going upwards. But here she is! And it was at the exact time too!
So much in life. Keep looking forward! Make the best of what I have.
And then also, I finally found back Kristen's blog! She moved her link 2 weeks ago at the start of the holidays, and she told me about it, but didn't leave a forwarding link. I searched google like mad, but to no avail. Finally I got her by sms and she emailed the link over. Phew. haha
You won! 1:48 AM
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Just ended my service project meeting. Satisfying. We managed to get quite alot of things done. After we finish this part, it will be half completed. and the next half, we'll have another 3 weeks or so to complete it.
Then next I'll have marketing to do. Im glad that my project mates finally contacted me, because I didn't really know them and their numbers. haha. my fault. but thank God they did.
Then I also slept at 5am earlier, because I was working on the website. I really wanted to finish what i needed to do, so i can get the other ideas going. For a brick and motar company, the internet can be such a huge open door to business, if you know how to market and build your website. So that's my job, and I hope to get things going soon after I polish up the site.
Then I also need to remember that I have e-learning work to complete by this week, since everybody else is in China. haha.
And Piano exam is coming soon. Need to practise.
You won! 5:11 PM
Over the past few days, I have been working on my Company's website. After attending the marketing course, I now have so many more new ideas to market the products, and convert the website into a more productive one. However, now it's still in the process. www.ephodconsulting.com. I hope it will really be a door to bring the benefits out and the sales in.
This week has been rather free for me, because most of my classmates and lecturers are in Shanghai. All of my classes are E-learning. So I just stay home and relax. But also, I've got to work on a project. Have to meet my group members tomorrow, but I've not done much yet! I'd better get started. haha.
There's really so much I need and want to do. But limited time. I really need to prioritise man. Each thing I want or need to do takes at least 1-2 hours. I will do them.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
multiplying? is that all you're concerned about? you say its about souls. but do your actions show it? you're trying so hard to ask me things. you say you understand what i'm going through. but you really dont know me, you wouldn't understand. trust me. you just want to get things done don't you? want to get results don't you? if that's all you're concerned about, i'm afraid you'll never trully understand why things are going wrong. You'll have all sorts of activities, pushing to making things happen, but you'll only be getting the new and losing the old. please find back your main focus, your main reason for existence. If not, scram. You will want me to feedback, then you'll leave me alone to die doing it. I've been there before, so don't fool me once again. the fact is that you're not even asking for feedback. You're just giving me information and wanting my attendance and cooperation. Why should I waste my time? remember ROI? to me, you're extremely low.
sound's emo right. actually i'm not very much bothered by it. life goes on. I still love Jesus. i don't hate them. just their methods.
I worked till 4am lastnight, woke up at 2pm, and worked till 4pm. haha. busy man? still have projects to do man. and elearning tutorials. Went to town with Dad, Mom n Sis, met with Ken and Cindy later on. I really want to buy clothes. after what Cindy and Ken said, i don't dare to buy anything anymore. because what i thought was nice, wasn't nice to them. and because 2 to 1, i still lose. So how? I've walked for 2 days, and not buying a single piece of clothing, and spending the money on food instead. Its not helping at all.
There are so many things i like. but I don't buy them. I think I can really spend if I have the money. but I care for my parents. but then I either end up with cheap stuff or nothing. how? I think the only thiing they allow me to spend on without questioning is food. And they remind me that I have a HUGE tummy. Yea, I do. and worse, I can't fit so many clothes now! Thats why I need to buy. But at my current rate of buying, i'll not have enough time to study, and work. Then how do i get income? maybe i should just focus on earning money, then hire a fashion consultant to buy my clothes and style my hair. Now's the GSS, and still, everything's expensive to me. how? maybe i should just BUY. nope. i will not waste money. I need to change my mindset. if not i'll never buy anything, but just end up fat from food. because it'll be the only thing that i buy.
You won! 11:00 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
NOW is the season where parents are starting to get weird. Nagging, scolding for weird reasons.
I was chatting with Felicia, and came up with this about nagging.
"i really think nagging is one of the world's worst tortures." "it squeezes you slowly but surely, not physicall, but mentally, till you feel like killing yourself." "cos ure trapped. you cant rebel against authority because it's rude. and yet when you obey the nagging, it still doesnt cease. its just like a fly that you can't seem to kill."
..and i wrote this with a passion of hate for nagging. Cos that's what I just was reminded of few hours ago.
Nagging is, when the nagger never has a LAST sentence..
Now, lets check dictionary.com
"annoy by scolding," 1828, originally a dialectal word, probably ultimately from a Scand. source (cf. O.N. gnaga "to complain," lit. "to bite, gnaw," dial. Swed. and Norw. nagga "to gnaw") related to O.E. gnagan "to gnaw"
To scold, complain, or find fault constantly: nagging at the children.
To be a constant source of anxiety or annoyance: The half-remembered quotation nagged at my mind.
And this one's interesting.
A horse, especially: An old or worn-out horse. Slang A racehorse.
So many meanings. Did the tag origin from calling an irritating person a old or worn out horse? maybe because naggings usualy came from older people? I don't know. just guessing. Maybe we should try wikipdia.
Nah. Wikipedia didn't say anything.
But I found some cool resources on Amazon. If you need help, check them out.
Firstly, for PARENTS who want to find more EFFECTIVE solutions other than nagging...
Or would you fancy this magnet on your car or fridge?
Probably, another effective solution is to check out these really cool earplugs. Click on the pictures to find out more.
If you have a mp3 player or ipod, then get this.
Maybe if you just want to dampen the nagging sounds, or you happen to be a musician that jams frequently with loud music, then get these hi quality Sound Filters.
So here's all the stuff i've found online. and why buy online? because its better value for money as you get to compare quality with prices. And also, secondly, it comes right to your doorstep. Convenience! haha.
now time to slp. zzz.
You won! 12:30 AM
Saturday, June 23, 2007
I must say, I thoroughly hate people that care more about results and achievements rather than people. They bother so much about numbers, getting information, earning that extra buck, but don't give a heck about you. Such Hypocrytes. Take for example, you have a website, and you keep trying to advertise it to get people to contribute to it, and that's all you ever talk about because you want to increase your traffic, but guess what, you still get nobody or little people. But if you have a website that gives people value instead of taking people's value, just imagine how willing people will be to contribute to your website in return? and so much more in fact! It goes the same for organizations and groups. You want your people to perform, but you don't bother to care for them, and try to pay them less to make more money. Then you resort to force and threat to make your workers perform. How stupid that is. Pay what is due, care for your workers and give them vaue due, and even more. How much more will they love your company and want to perform for your company?
If you don't see this basic and simple principle, you're really blind. Come on, what are organizations and companies formed for in the first place? Study your history. To create jobs right? to help people right? Why have you so deviated from your original purpose? Of what good is your organization or company anymore? just throw it into the bin..seriously..
You won! 1:20 AM
Just came back from 2days of Pst Peter Chu's services at Lighthouse. I did enjoy the messages.
5 areas to be 100% in. health finances work family spiritual.
And today, about having faith an believing for God's provision.
Yesterday was Joleen's birthday, went bowling and pool.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
summary.
Went to school on monday to meet up my project group members and get started on the service project. It isn't that all difficult. Then went with Ken to Jurong gym. And just because he wanted to meet Someone, he stopped my treadmill when I was cooling down. Idiot. And then ended up, things didn't go according to plan, and screwed up his day. poor thing.
I have this friend. Sometimes I try not to believe that he's using me for his benefit and in fact, not being concerned for me. But at the end of the day, it always seems like that.
Then yesterday, I stayed home. Recuperating from the musche aches, lack of sleep over the few days, and absence of cash. It was rather fruitful. Had a wonderful dinner with my family. It only took 30mins to finish our huge meal. That's Singapore? haha. Rushing everything.
Its coming back again. Oh no. I don't want it. The season has begun again. HELP! Its like a wave of destruction, seducing first, then crushing ruthlessly at the end. What seemed good eventually turned out worse than hell. And the world claims they learn a lesson from it. Maybe that's just an excuse for covering up their stupidness in the first place, and maybe even giving them another ticket to get another go all over again in the name of learning. Then after a few lessons, their heart gets too bruised and torn, so much that they cease to feel anymore. Such that they have to use their minds instead of their hearts. Thats why some people are really such "jerks and bitches". Not to mention, finding a substitute to fill that broken hole, then realise that it doesn't fit, and trow in the towel, tearing it out again just as it already started to grow some roots. Guess what, now the hole gets torn even worse, and even more difficult to find something that fits and fills perfectly. Then, using so much of their mind, they totally miss the one their heart tells them is his/hers, and end up with something their heart doesnt say is right, but the mind accepts as it is, due to many other perverted sources that tell them is right. And so, marriage really becomes a lifetime of hell. Let me assure you, you don't want a lifetime of "just ok". you'll get sick of it, really sick. So please wait. Your heart has to tell you first, then you also need your mind to balance it out. If it came from your mind first, you're not being true to yourself, you're settling for something that you subconsciously talked ot thought yourself into. Then again, if you think you'll never get to be with the one you love, deal with that wrong belief. If you dont, you will suffer. Usually is your root of low self esteem. Don't swing to pride or ego-ness, but remain in balance.
Life is really like a pendulum. You swing from one extreme to the other uncounsciously, thinking the opposite is right. Finding the equilibrium and staying there is of utmost importance. Some ways to get there are by learning experiences, or by listening to the right advice. It's like your teachers always tell you, learn it right, then you wont have to learn from a mistake of failure. Either way, be wise, and humble. Finding that equilibrium is half the battle won. You trully win if you can stay there. haha!
I just hope people around me have their eyes opened to see.
You won! 1:34 PM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Some pics.
Ken, LP, Joleen and I went to west coast for supper.
The next day we went to Cindy's house, and here's the ladies cooking.
Cindy working on the Japanese curry for me. haha. aww. thanks cindy once again, it was awesome!
Leepeng making the chocolate marshmellows. yummy.
I took this pic too late. I enjoyed the Jap curry with rice so much that i only remembered to take a pic when cindy mentioned. by then, that's all that's left.
Here's the pot of curry.
Leepeng woke up super earl the next morning and tried to wake everybody up, and we didn't want to. so she went to cook. haha.
There, her spaghetti. some awesome stuff i tell you.
Here's mascular Ken. hahaha.
and Ken in toys R us. HAHA!
You won! 10:42 PM
I've been at an Internet marketing course since 8am this morning. Slept past 2 lastnight after coming back from picking my parents at the airport. So i'm catching naps whenever i can. It's been ok so far. but I already know most of the info they're teaching. I guess, just like the course introduction says, "great ideas will not make any money.. until you execute them. So I really need to dare to try. It really isn't that difficult to make money online.
Thank God my uncle signed up for the course also, so he gave me a lift from home. and sat beside me throughout the day, so i could ask him if i missed out any part. haha
Look at this drumset!! Cool?! Very Style right!! Love it man.
If you want, to buy it, click HERE directly to the site alright.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Last few days were fun. I played guitar for my cell meeting. It was the first time in many months since I last played for cell, and been months since I last played my guitar. So my fingertips were soft, and they hurt. Partly also because I switched from my previous medium strings to heavy strings. I somehow last minute, ended up playing for the rest of the meeting. It was rather intese, until sweat beads formed at the top side of my fingertips. I never knew there were pores there. haha. And my guitar pick got worn out, and came close to snapping.
Then we went for service, which was really cool. About the cultural mandate. Haha. And we sang this old song that I like very much. Can't seem to recall the lyrics. haha
Then I went to play for chinese service. It was by far, the most satisfying session since I started playing there. I think it was because of the band and singers. The flow was just awesome! Totally enjoyed it.
Then flew to expo for my service. Which was once again superb. Went out with Ken, and my car thermometer read 36degrees. insane! my arm was hurting from the sun rays while inside the car with aircon at full blast, and it took 20mins or so to cool the car.
Played pool, and won Ken. Dunno why, but he was missing alot of his shots. Then just when I arrived home, I got an sms from cindy, asking to go to bugis with she n LP. Which I did, and bought a cool shirt. LP finally arrived when the shops closed.
And cindy had to reach home by 11, and so we planned an impromtu chillout at her place. The gals ran into cold storage and bought food in 10mins in a last minute stop by. And so it was fun. Cindy cooked Japanese Curry for me!! Thanks Cindy, It was Really Really nice! and of course, I shared with the rest. LP cooked spaghetti and mashed potatoes for us all in the morning, which was also really nice. See all the hidden talents emerging. haha.
Then they went to botanical gardens in the afternoon to draw swans? haha.
I had my beauty sleep in a nice aircon room, with my very own bed and blanket. muahaha. Apparently my music lesson was postponed.
Then I went with my sister out to shop. First to bp plaza. Then to PS, which was rather fruitful. And talking about KFC. Never before have i smelt such a good smell. It smelt like the salty gravy on the mashed potatoes. but I think it really is from the new japanese chicken. Salty taste. Even till now the smell of it's still on my fingers. haha. yummy!
And I have a project to complete by tomorrow. actually its overdue. ah. it'll be fine.
Here's one weird guitar pic I found on www.squizzle.com. I wouldn't mind having one. it'd be fun. haha.
And a music video that Xinfang sent to me. check it out.
You won! 1:19 AM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Tests are over. Now what?
Bro's in band camp, parents overseas, sister out. I've been home watching discovery channel the whole of my today after waking up at 5pm. Needed that sleep after the past few days of burning midnight oil to study.
Which is better? to have many things to do or none?
I hope my holiday will be fruitful and fulfilling.
I don't think it'll be fun with nothing to do.
You won! 9:21 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Got a call from Cindy, and decided to go down to study with her and jo. First the place was noisy, then it was stuffy. then the other place was noisy, but i managed to cover signifant ground. I feel worn out. Drove jo n Cindy home. LP decided to stay and study. Now it's time to clear up and memorise some points and I'm done.
Cindy actually reads my blog huh. Hi Cindy.
ZZZ. I'm off. Tomorrow will be a great day!
You won! 2:08 AM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
gg to west coast mac to study now. tata
You won! 9:18 PM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Hiya! I'm back from my common test!
It was an interesting night of studying. Yesterday, I slept until 8+ before I decided I'd better wake up to study. But not before going out for dinner with my bro. So I started studying about 10. It was slow going at first, but with only 3 chapters to complete. The notes were so brief I decided to use the textbook instead. It was really interesting, I studied, then took a break, then studied, and fell asleep, and woke up and studied. This happened quite a few times till I finally decided i had studied enough, and went to sleep around 4. I had simply only read through 2 out of 3 chapters. It was dream time and I suddenly for some reason, thought that the time was already 1030, and my paper starts at 830, so I had missed it. I lept out of bed to check the clock to be sure, and sure enough, it was a dream. It was still about 8mins before the time set for my alarm to go off. And so, I took time to wake up, and left home at about 810, and surprisingly, saturday morning traffic is really clear. So I arrived and parked at school at 820+, just in time to sit down, take a breather, and start the paper. And really, the paper was a breeze. Only for that 1 or 2 questions of mcq and another short answer question that I didn't know, but I got the rest of the calculation questions. So I'm pretty happy!
And also, This morning I woke up and saw a sms from Cindy, Wishing me good luck for the paper. She was the only one who did. Thanks Cindy! I appeared offline lastnight because I didn't want to be disturbed studying and sleeping. But anyone who had skype would have seen me online. haha! So moral of the story, Download skype.
I have emerge later in the night, I wonder who's going too.
Now for a time of rest and maybe gym later. My next test is on 6th, which should be on tuesday.
Oh, and I had lunch with Mangai and Tini. Such nice classmates I have.
You won! 10:48 AM
Friday, June 01, 2007
I just came home after a whole day of emerge conference. Most of the times were spent in the hall though, and I managed to catch some sleep in the car before second session. haha
And I also just got the news that there is SOM commontest this sat morning. zzz. Have to start studying.
I'm getting so tired I really need a long day where I can just lie down and sleep early and wake up late without being disturbed at all.
I went for lunch with my beloved mei Xinfang yesterday. I was so happy. I really miss her alot, and haven't seen her in a long time. If there's someone that understands me, she's the one. Such a precious gift from God!
I'm going to sleep now. Have lessons later. Night!