I want an exciting life
A life stretched to its fullest potential
Used to what it was created to achieve
God has a destiny for me
I believe communication is the key to successful relationships
And relationships is the key to life
Without love, all this will be impossible
I value a friend above performance
My close friends must be people who are committed to progress
They must have a proven character
They are people of integrity
They must be people with Big dreams and actions just as big
HAHA
Now, here's something new on my blog. my want list!
I figured that I should start wanting stuff and ejoying my life. Fed up with always compromising.
So here goes.
WANTS(needs in fact)
~ 2 new good zildjian crash cymbals (got 1 already!)
~ iron cobra double pedal
~ new tama full drumset
~ clavinova electric piano
~ fender bass amp ~ super good pair of in-ear earphones ~ new leatherback nkjv (slightly smaller than A4) size Bible
~ GTA San Andreas
~ GTA 4
~ New fast laptop ~ Car with petrol paid for
~ Maybach Exelero *find out more* It costs USD 8million
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
What do you blog when you have nothing to blog about? HAHA. Anybody knows?
Well, I slept early yesterday, and woke up at 12am. Ended up reading the Daily Devotionals written by Pst Kong 2 yrs ago. I've decided to follow it through the dates. It really renewed my mind again. Reminded me of my salvation, the reason and power of baptism. It gave me fresh revelations. The Word gave me life! I was reminded of my identity in Christ.
Because of the blood of Jesus, I am now the temple of the Holy Spirit. The devil has no place in me, and no power over me!
I had a personal revelation of how much Jesus actually loves me when He suffered and died on the cross for someone so unworthy like me. How could I ever repay Him? The least I could do is to give my life and time to Him.
You won! 6:21 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
WOSH!!
I'm on fire again!! HAHA
ok ok. Glory to God alone.. haha
See.. thats why in the first place this blog add is DesiringYourPresence!
Yeah!
More to come..
Smile
You won! 11:14 PM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Alright, today was a much better day.
I dreamt of this phrase "A pure heart" And woke up thinking about it. Can't remember what the dream was already.
Then Piano teacher came along, and we had a good chat. She also mentioned, "a pure heart" wow! Something huh..interesting.
And I also woke up thinking, Life isn't that complicated. Because it really isnt. It's just really simple. So with a mind that was set on simple mode, the morning just felt really nice.
Remember lastnight, there was a hurricane wind that tore through Singapore? Amazing man! haven't felt such strong winds in my life before. And I Love it!! I love strong winds! haha. But then i started to shiver.. This song just came to mind, "Lord of my life i love You, Lord or my days i trust in You..." It just seemed to suit the mood. haha.
Oh yea, Then i went out with Bro Ken.. yeah man! found this double drum studio at excelsia hotel, and jammed for an hour! great time and free drinks man.
And i won Ken at pool? few rounds. wow. since when have i won anybody? haha. i just bothered to play. not win.. And so did i at dota. it was my first time playing and i didn't know what was going on. haha. Bro, still love you alright. haha. doubt you'll come to my blog anyway.
Life has been interesting recently.
Alright, exams are round the corner. i'll be studying more..
And thanks to Janet who introduced me the Ro private server, now i'm playing again. haha..
And i think i'll finally play GTA again. Kristen plays that.. never heard a girl play that game..haha!
okok. Glory to God. zzz
You won! 1:54 AM
Monday, January 22, 2007
I'll let them fade away in their time. Healing is a constant process. Unless you acknoledge you have an injury wound then you can properly nurse and protect it.
Its just like collecting rain water from a leaking roof. If you use a pail, you'll gather alot and have alot to pour out at one time,it's harder to carry and it gets messy at times. If you fix a pipe that leads to the drain, the capacity will always be little and manageable at every given time.
Just like studying. If you leave your work to a fixed time before you start, it will be harder than when you attempt it whenever you have time right after you're given. It splits the chunk of load into many easily manageable pieces.
Just like hurts. It's a feeling, an emotion. If you store them up each time by trying to hide, and not being real with yourself, It will happen when the limit of the emotional bottle has reahed, it will overflow or even explode. Thats why at times it's too much to handle for some people in just that few hours or minutes. But if the flow of release is constant, it'll feel much easier to cope with life.
So be real with yourself! Don't try to force happiness on. Be a brother in time of adversary.
~ What a sour heart, What an ache.
You won! 8:46 PM
Thinking of the times at the Esplanade. The times in Bugis. The times in Vivo. The times in Westmall The times in my car. The times in my living room. The times in my room.
How will I ever erase the engravings I made with intent to last Forever? Not on tablets of stone, but on hearts of flesh. With what shall I fill the gaping holes and tears from the violent uprooting? Flesh hanging loose at every surface, like Jesus's back on crucifiction day. It tortures so much it would be better to follow Him up the cross. Because at least, it won't last another day.
You're like a nurse. It stops bleeding and hurting whenever you're around. Comforting and assuring are your words. But when you go, the pain comes back, and the drops of scarlet begin to seep through the scabs. It all begins again.
Why'd you have to go? Why did you have to leave me for someone else? Why did you...
I know it will never be, like how it used to be. Only memories will be forever. Will another heart be able to fill that place? What a rubbish mood I'm feeling. It feels like I've been chasing an an illusion. And it still is an illusion.
Did it all really happen? I think it did.
I'm in the time of life where human magnets start to get activated and run wild. Extreme repulsions and attractions taking place all around. It's a time where hormones are raging to continue the line of species. Natural instincts kick into pace. What was once unknown suddenly becomes a reality even in the absence of teachers. Who is "the one"? When is the time? How do you stem out the urge? Why does the society reject so much of it's nature in the name of caution?
Think about how we are educated about the natural habitat and let it grow on it's free will. It has a natural beauty we know how to appreciate in flowers and greens. We spend time, money and effort trying to preserve and cultivate nature. We enjoy it without guilt or shame.
But why does it all change when it comes to us?
Saturday, January 20, 2007
My room ah..
YEAH. Its my favorite place in the world.
Might not be that beautiful, doesn't have new furniture, messed up with quite alot of stuff.
But its the place that I grew up.
In this room I learnt almost everything I now know with computers. Remember those days when I spent countless hours playing a game. That goes for guitars too. Playing and servicing them. My drumset spent most of it's life in my room too. And it was also on my table, books and bed that I practiced my drumsticks. Numerous major events in my life all trace back to my room. Counting the hours, I've spent most of my life in this room.
But what's the best thing about my room is the time I've spent with God. The times I spent indulging and devouring God's word, the countless hours I spent reading books, Praying, and worshipping.
This room carries a different atmosphere from any other place in my house. It is filled by this feeling of love, peace, joy. The presence of God! The power and anointing rests in this place, So does the Glory. This is the room that I found God personally. This is the room that I've had numerous conversations with Him. When things go bad in my life, I find physical refuge in my room. In this room, Dreams have begun and numerous have already come to pass. This room will continue to make history!
And only significant people are welcomed into my room. It's happened subconsciously. haha. If you know me very well, you'll have spent quite some time not just in my house, but in my room.
HAHA..
a song to go along...
Let Your Glory Fall
FATHER OF CREATION UNFOLD YOUR SOVEREIGN PLAN RAISE UP A CHOSEN GENERATION THAT WILL MARCH THROUGH THE LAND ALL OF CREATION IS LONGING FOR YOUR UNVEILING OF POWER WOULD YOU RELEASE YOUR ANOINTING O GOD LET THIS BE THE HOUR
LET YOUR GLORY FALL IN THIS ROOM LET IT GO FORTH FROM HERE TO THE NATIONS LET YOUR FRAGRANCE REST IN THIS PLACE AS WE GATHER TO SEEK YOUR FACE
LET YOUR KINGDOM COME (LET YOUR KINGDOM COME) LET YOUR WILL BE DONE (LET YOUR WILL BE DONE) LET US SEE ON EARTH (LET US SEE ON EARTH) THE GLORY OF YOUR SON
RULER OF THE NATION THE WORLD HAS YET TO SEE THE FULL RELEASE OF YOUR PROMISE THE CHURCH IN VICTORY TURN TO US, LORD AND TOUCH US MAKE US STRONG IN YOUR MIGHT OVERCOME OUR WEAKNESS THAT WE CAN STAND UP AND FIGHT
You won! 7:18 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Hey there.. here's a nice song with meaningful lyrics.. To all my friends out there having problems in your relationships, remember to always look at the bright side of life. Look for the good. And communication is the key to all relationships.
Here's a song that understands you guys..
Almost here by Brian Mcfadden & Delta Goodrem
Did I hear you right 'cause I thought you said Let's think it over You have been my life And I never planned Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light Where the love once shined so bright Came without a reason Don't let go on us tonight Love's not always black and white Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you You're almost here And I know that's not enough And when I'm with you I'm close to tears 'cause you're only almost here
I would change the world If I had a chance Oh won't you let me Treat me like a child Throw your arms around me Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words Dazed and shattered now it hurts Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you You're almost here And I know that's not enough And when I'm with you I'm close to tears 'cause you're only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words Dazed and shattered now it hurts Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you You're almost here Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you And when I hold you you're almost here Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted And now I'm with you I'm close to tears 'cause I know I'm almost here Only almost here
You won! 10:14 PM
hey there world!
hahaha. okay okay. I'm good. really.
Time has passed.
It's been a rather interesting week for me.
I've been going to destiny centre for the past 3 days, and i'm really blessed.
My life is changed once again.
3 Cheers to Jesus!!
Ahh.. batt low.. shan't talk more..
Smile!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Ever heard Elvis Presley's songs? He's old stuff, yeah. He died in 1977, that was 10 years even before I was born. But I tell you, Music lives on a long time. I just LOVE the Passion and EMO he puts into playing a simple song like Unchained Melody. The art, emotions, taste, expression and meaning of a song stays fresh even after its being heard many years later. You can literally feel the intensity as he sings and plays the piano. Thats the reason for music man! Actually its also because I love playing music like that. haha But just check this video out. And I've the lyrics below so you can figure out what he's singing.
Unchained Melody
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea To the open arms of the sea Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me I'll be coming home, wait for me
Oh, my love, my darling I've hungered for your touch A long, lonely time And time goes by so slowly And time can do so much Are you still mine?
I need your love, I oh I need your love God speed your love to me
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea To the open arms of the sea Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me I'll be coming home, wait for me
Oh, my love, my darling I've hungered, hungered for your touch A long, lonely time And time goes by so slowly And time can do so much Are you still mine?
I need your love, I oh I need your love God speed your love to me
You won! 12:49 AM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Just happened to chance upon this song while browsing youtube. not a popular song i think. simple tune and lyrics. but pretty meaningful.
Alive by Jenifer Lopez
Time Goes, slowly now, in my life Fear, no more, of what, I'm not sure Searching to feel your soul, The strength to stand alone The power of not knowing, and letting go...
I guess I've found my way It's simple when it's right Feeling lucky just be here, tonight And happy, Just to be me, And be...Alive
Love In and out, of my, my heart And though life, can be strange, I can't, be afraid Searching to feel your soul, The strength to stand alone, The power of not knowing and letting go.
I guess I've found my way, It's simple when it's right. Feeling lucky just to be here, tonight And happy, just to be me, And be...Alive
You won! 4:38 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
Wow!
Today started gloomy..
it remained gloomy..
till in the evening..
I'm so changed!
I can smile again! hahaha!!
alright! time for me to sleep.
Zzz..
You won! 9:52 PM
Phew.. This weekend has been quite taxing on my heart.. it's been bleeding. though its healing, the wound still cracks open sometimes and it bleeds. man, it's sure painful. I'm just glad I have grown from the past. I'm better at managing these stuffs now. Ain't angry, ain't bitter, ain't jealous. Just bleeding from a torn heart.
This has made me unable to sleep well for the past few days. I am super sleepy now. haha Thank God that i still wake up on time.
Well, I shall still continue learning from mistakes. Broken hearts will heal, but memories will always remain, and he most important things are the lessons learnt. That summarises it all.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
hahaha.. maybe its very true.. what my sis says.. i'm just getting to know my sister better.. yes..i'm not mad or anything..a sad post just before this one on the same day.. gotta appreciate what you have you see.. i kinda realise i've been far from my family members since i was young.. for some unknown reason, i just don't talk much with them. it was my mom really, all the time caring for me, and being by me that i still felt it was like home. 5 members in the family, all share rooms except me. so yea. i'm kinda in a loner's camp.. haha but its never too late to start right.
And here's something to Ken Tan. He was my classmate from P4. Then we got to know each other one day in P5 when both our parents denied permision to go a trip to Little India to visit the temples or something. So we were both left alone in our classroom that day while the whole class were enjoying themselves. That was about the first time I remember talking. I asked him why did you go? and He said, my God doesn't allow. and I said. me too. haha..imagine two cute lil pri sch boys.. then we talked abit more. That Evening after school, i excitedly told my mom about my classmate being a christian. At such a young age i'd already was concerned about these things. haha So then it was his birthday somewhere in mid P6, when he invited me along to his house for a stayover party. 9 years later, we're both in poly's studying Business. And we're still brothers. haha. He's a highly accomplished drummer who is set to make waves in the music industry. as for me, I went into band and was pumped up with music. I learnt the drums too, and started playing it the first time at his house when i was p5 i think. So we're drum friends also. Thats our history, and a even longer future waiting to be written. Great one too!
You won! 9:40 PM
well well...its new year.. last year, the BEST thing that could happen happened.. and so did the worse thing..this year.. man.. man.. what a way to start the new year.. its hard to cope.. but i'll manage i guess.. pains me even till now..
its like you're pumped with a drug for few weeks.. then all of a sudden it becomes scarce for an unknown reason.. you crave it and passionately seek it, trying to seek understanding why the supply stopped. but no matter how you think and ask, you don't seem to be able to understand why.. then finally you hear the reason from the supplier that it's been on hold for awhile to supply another source.. then shortly after say that your supply will totally be shut off.. now you realise you are in some really deep shit.. you question yourself why you took it in the first place.. you answer saying, i knew it was the best thing and right all the while.. ahh..weird example..it isnt really drug. but the story is similar..
and then u realise later, that because you asked the supplier, it might had make things worse..it was as if like you didn't trust the supplier.. but you reasoned it'll be worse of letting your mind wander and coming to wierd conclusions.. so you asked. and now you think if it was wrong to ask in the frist place. that certainly leaves you in a deeper mystery than before. and in deeper trouble. maybe shutting up is really the best solution? who knows.. or there might have been something more than that..who knows.. see how it leads on.. really sad.. extremely..
somethinig interesting did happen the next day after the truth of the heartbreaking decision.. i suddenly met a whole bunch of my friends.. even primary school ones.. i don't know why it happened.. i mean i didn't see them at all for many years or months, and they all appear in the same day. not all, but enough for me to notice..hmm..
anyway, Why have words become so cheap.. to me, they're serious, and should be protected with life. but its okay. i'll forgive.. thats so ME..
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Things we build up fall to the ground sometimes due to many reasons. But let this story of the bees i wrote be an encouragement to you.
Seemingly small, but a great lesson can be learnt from the little honey bees. They work hard day and night to build their hive. They give their whole lives, time and energy into collecting pollen, and nursing the young in the hive. After achieving so much by sheer hard work, they manage to build a great hive and colony of bees that will last on for many years ahead. It’s a legacy to be left for the many next generations yet to be hatched. But then, all of a sudden, the farmer arrives. He cuts the hive out from its holding in one swift move of his machete. The bees frantically try to defend, but to no avail. The hive is taken to the spinning cylinder, and the sweet honey forcefully drained from all its hexagonal storerooms. Just imagine how sad and depressed the bees are feeling. All of the same family, lost and dazed by what happened; having their only place of refuge they depended their lives on forcefully taken away from them. But soon, after a few hours, they realize that they cannot go on sitting around waiting for their hive to return. They cluster together again, and with all they still have, start to build a brand new hive. Not halfheartedly, but with all vigor, and passion, knowing that sunset is near, and at least they will have a place to spend the night. It was an extremely traumatic day for the bees, but from the crack of sunrise the next morning, they resume duties, get reorganized, and build their kingdom towards glory once again.
The moral of the story: Refuse to be defeated. Get up from the dust quickly and don't stop walking.
What areas in life will this apply to? In career, family, relationships? think think think... what say you?
You won! 2:52 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Yeah.. school has started. we're all getting busy again. Got projects to do and present, and assignments, and stuff.. yup. Been having a pretty good time so far. Today's service was awesome. haha.
i've been listening to this audio cd series on the 10 Critical Laws to relationships. about any types of relationships, and why its important to choose the right people to relate to, and how to choose them to ensure success in your life and theirs. got 6 points here about the non-negotiable attributes of any fulfilling relationship. 1. Personal Integrity 2. A Giving Attitude 3. An Unswerving Commitment to Truth 4. A Long-Term perspective and Commitment 5. A Passionate Pursuit of Distinction 6. A Kingdom Mentality
interested to know more? i'll be posting bits and pieces i find interesting. so look out. hhah
You won! 8:35 PM
Friday, January 05, 2007
Pics again! haha. but oops, i got them all upside down. its okay lar hor.. just browse upwards. haha
Finally we arrive home, after about 500km in 9 hours. look at how much stuff came home. haha!
The view from cameron highlands, strawberry park resort.
since it was cold, we had Steamboat for dinner. yea. this fire was engineered. we threw dried yellow noodles in and they burnt pretty well.
The next morning, we saw on the news.. someone dies everytime i'm overseas. the last time i went to Israel, Yasser Arrafat was pronouncd dead.
That's me sticking my head out the window. the air was cool up there, no need for aircon. It was about 22 degrees in the day? yeah..
cameron town or someting. where we managed to find decent internet, and super cheap cyber cafe's its RM2.80 per hour. wosh..
Honey Bee Farm..
On the way to Cameron Highlands, we stopped for the BEST durian in the world! it was very reasonably priced at RM15 for 6 durians, and they tasted so sweet. beats all the other durians we see in singapore. those taste only average and are ex.
A "donkey" taxi driver decides to drive thru KL Chinatown street. somehow, that is still legally a road. i bet he took a long time just to clear this stretch.
Then we arrive in KL finally, on the 2nd day. The view from my hotel room window.. that in the middle, its KL university.
Rideres Lodge. The first place of our malaysia trip. My first time riding horses. Fell off once, and ached my groin muscles real bad for the next 3 days. not to mention, i smelt like a horse after that.