Friday, March 31, 2006
oh no..i think in 1 mth's time my heart's gonna break again.. ahh...
but its God's will hor.. i'll just have to obey willingly.
i dun think it will all be that bad after all..
it will all be a new vision..
hard to tell what the future holds..
but i'll make sure i make the best of my life this time.
i'm gonna super strengthen and deepen my personal relationship with God.
I'm gonna love Him no matter what happens..
its gonna be sad.. i mean i already feel it..
but lets all push forward, look forward, look to Jesus, and see each other in heaven ok..make sure ah...!!
Then we'll have fellowship there..haha..
outings..and all that..
why am i saying all these..
man..i should be shutting my mouth and seeking God...
You won! 10:46 PM
I've finished another book.
its called - Only Love can make a Miracle
by Mahesh Chavda.
Its basically an incredible life story of Mahesh himself. He was brought up in a great family in india. His dad was one of the top leaders in that area, and his family had been in the lineage of Kings for the past 800 years.
His dad had died when he was only 5. But it lesft him enough of a legacy to be inspired by. He went on to become the school's top scorer, head prefect, and alot of other top positions just like his father.
He went about learning more and more about his religion then.
But the more he learnt about it, the more he wasnt satified, cos he couldn't find God there.
A missionary gave him a New Testament bible once, and since then, his life took a change. He had found real truth!
From then on, God led him in his life, during a time and period where churches in the western world were not too helpful, God raised him up peresonally.
Through many lessons God thought him.
Today, He is one of the top healing evangelists in the world. The power of God moves mightily through him in meetings. Still, the most Humble and practical man i've known on the earth.
He is in the lines with people such as Benny Hinn, Reinhard Bonnke, Richard Roberts. but still is not much heard of in our country and our church.
but is doing a trememdous work in Africa, America, and round the world.
I pray that he'd come here soon to impart something to us.
I urge you to get hold of this book.
It has truell inspired my life, and its got me thinking once again, about what i want to do with my life.
Click Herea
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
ok...so what i did..
i packed up.. went down..
went to the shop..
and there were only 2 spaghetti left.
all the other food were gone..
i had no choice. i took it.
its yummy.
now, i'm seated at the tables, facing this gigntic machine they're using to reach up to the high windows to be cleaned.
and this machine makes loud noises..
haha..
though its warmer here..its noiser..
and now somebody's cutting tiles..zaaannnttt....
haha..
great..i've just blogged 2 posts. haha..
and welcome back my tagboard.
cbox certainly slows the loading down..
and also gives the unwnted advertisements..
which cause the blog to hang when windows rejects the ads, and thus the cbox doesn't load, and when the cbox doesn't load, the whole blog hangs.
after this examination,
Dr David suggests that if you have similar problems,
use another tagboard service provider.
or simply do away with your tagboard.
yup.. thats all..
consultation fee for now is $0.
thank you. please come again.
oh great..now it's raining..and water droplets are landing all over my screen..
hahha.. time to move again lorh..
not bad ah..this kinda life...
haha..move here n there..and do what you need to or want at your time, and still get paid..lol...
You won! 2:49 PM
i don't know what to blog..
haha...
just that i'm in a really freezing cold school library.
and i'm craving for yummy food.
I wonder if the stall duwnstairs in open.
but then again its 5 floors down.
i'll have to pack up my laptop, bag, carry it down.
cos it might be stolen you see..
and in this room, i can blast music, sing, and do all i want.
i can't downstairs.
but its getting cold..
so i should go down where its warmer..
there i can also eat.
but no more privacy to enjoy..
ahh..my stomach's growling..
so i'd better go..haha..
~~~
just some thoughts in my mind now..haha..
Monday, March 27, 2006
wow..last night i dreamt of everything again..
quite an adventure..
i wonder why..
and the moment i woke up..
whao..it hit me like a storm..
i took me sometime to get over it..
but by the time i reached office i was better..
i wonder what could have caused it to all come back again..
now its my turn to say:"..
..it takes time..
..i still need more time..."
before friendship can grow and bloom again..
now, the soil is still settling..
later the rain will come...
the sun will shine..
then the seed can germinate again..
and the gardener will tend it..
and it will grow and bloom again..
but only when the season comes..
Gardener God knows best..
meanwhile..
I've went back to my first love..
Papa God...Jesus..
And i pray hard He'll always be..
and i'll make sure He'll always be..
I'm learning from Him once again..
building up again what once had crumbled..
You won! 7:01 PM
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Here are pictures again!! haha... starting always from bottom up..

See the "mini-concert" at Fish n Co. ... the food was yummy.. and i love SUN.. i admire her.. She's the best..

SUN in action!!

Nice flower bouquet for SUN!!! from Winnie!

Kaikee under my jacket... Rachel showing the contrast of her jacket...haha

Dad came home from Riveria hotel in malacca. with all these foods!!! haha..

Daniel was so impacted by the bible verses that he started worshipping God..hahahah.... no lah..he was just giving a hint...lol...

After cell, we digged and found this ancient dusty box in my house cupboard. it was a board game my family owned since i was in prmary school.. but then we were too yong to know how to enjoy it boy was it fun when w330 played..haha..and for records sake, Amelie got the highiest score. slightly above 3k. haha

After discipleship class w sis yilun, 3 gals immediately got busy.. as you can see..

Best of the best.. truely the best.. and nice yumm bandung.. the courtesy of Amelie's mom.. haha..

You see that fella there..he's the taxi driver.. he hid behind that container and peed on the grass..haha...
You won! 9:29 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Sometimes things are just wierd..
When you're not ok, you soon get ok...
then when u're ok, u become not ok again..
then when u're not ok, you become ok again..
haha..i wonder why..
but thats life..
ups and downs..
as long as you hold on to a hope you'll be on the right track..
running your own race, at your own pace,
looking to the right goal,
then you'll be doing the right thing always.
thats what means more than anything in life..
You won! 11:46 AM
Friday, March 24, 2006
now... here's something useful for people who want to learn how to use Chopsticks...
Click HereOr if you want to learn the art about drinking Chinese Tea...
Click HereWine anybody???
Click Hereokay..maybe coffee then...
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You won! 12:06 AM
Thursday, March 23, 2006
I finished another book!! haha!!
2nd so far.. and counting..
The title of this book is Boundaries in Dating.
Its been a very enriching book.
It has changed many of my views on relationships.
And i understand them better too, and what limits and boundaries i must have in order to preserve a good relationship or even to be able to filter out the "bad" people early, so i dun get stuck with them for life.
I shall put the table of contents here to let you have a glimpse of how useful and enriching it can be.
This book isn't only for people who are already attached alright.
People like Me who are single read it too. Why? cos its something that we're gonna face one day. Or eitherway, you still have friends around you. This will help.
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ContentsAcknoledgements
Why Dating?
PART 1: You and Your Boundaries
1. Why Boundaries in Datiing?
2. Require and Embody Truth
3. Take God on a Date
4. Dating Won't Cure a Lonely Heart
5. Don't Repeat the Past
PART 2: Whom Should I Date?
6. What You Can Live With and What You Can't Live With
7. Don't Fall in Love with Someone You Wouldn't Be Friends With
8. Don't Ruin a Friendship Out of Loneliness
9. Beware When Opposites Attract
PART 3: Solving Dating Problems: When You're Part of the Problem
10. Adapt Now, Pay Later
11. Too Much, Too Fast
12. Don't Get Kidnapped
13. Kiss False Hope Good-bye
14. Boundaries on Blame
Part 4: Solving Dating Probles: When Your Date Is the Problem
15. Say No to Disrespect
16. Nip It in the Bud
17. Set Approriate Physical Limits
18. Set Up a Detention Hall
Conclusion
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So the conclusion?
Go get the book for yourself and enjoy reading it! haha.. its a sweet book afterall..


<--Click to go to Attributes Bookstore Site writeup

<--Click to go to Publisher, Zondervan Site writeup

<--Click to read Book Introduction
You won! 11:57 AM
Finally, the blogger pic uploading works.. with lotsa failures still.. but neverthelest, i've got them uploaded.
Sandy will be so happy.. haha.. too bad theres no tagboard now..lol.. soon ok.. i get it up soon..
W330 on a Sunday morning service! haha!

I pity Farrah...

Isaac Enjoying life...

Nice sunset eh..

Min n Farrah.

Min n Isaac giving it yet another shot..

Amelie at the hotseat..

Min going in for the kill....

Just like a pro.. hahaaa

New shiny balls...

Double power..

Scores..

Scores..
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Oh well. the pics.. i uploaded halfway and blogger had to fail on me again. the picture attaching window turns white when you click submit.. whatever.. other pics will come another time...

Isaac's Violin concert. okay. he's not in this pic. the one with him comes later. i hope we shot him performing. with the camera of course.

This is the MOON. On 15 March 06 it was really ROUND and BRIGHT.

Oh. This is my mom talking to Winnie. and this is the piano that Winnie bought. stylo huh! Winnie was the 2nd last person to clear the entire stock on promotion.
You won! 11:45 PM
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Ever wished you could really flush it down without having to worry bout it getting stuck?
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I chanced across this, and i thought it was real cool.. haha..
Sunday, March 19, 2006
okay people..look up... its picture time! Highlight post of the week for our dear friend Sandy in aussie! haha.. Enjoy!
~
AHH... blogger piture uploader isnt working for now.. too bad..we'll have to wait for tml or something..sorry folks.
You won! 9:50 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
what to blog..nothing to blog...
okay..just this little thing..
i heard from my classmate.. this security guard took the school buggy, not the small golf one.. but a big flatbed one for transporting lotsa stuff.. and drifted around the Atrium(some place in NP)... then he came to this tight corner.. and decided to experience how jaychou did it in Innitial D and drove right thru it.. that was when everybody heard a loud "boom".. hahah.. u can magine what happened.. he drove right into a water cooler!! and brought it down!! haha.. since that day, he's not been seen around the school! haha.. today while i was in school, workers were repairing the wall where the cooler once stood.. sad for that fella.. though the drifting must have been real fun..hahaha
You won! 12:03 AM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
I'm working now..
boss is doing delivery..
i'm utilising ngee ann's wireless internet.
but this net doesnt allow pop mail!!
how to work like that?
that explains y i'm blogging...haha
i just finished Benny Hinn's book, The anointing.
Will i pay the price?
i really love Jesus.
Though the price is heavy...
i will still have to pay right? right..
haha.. finally i finished 1 book!
have another 10 more to go? hahaha.. i think..
its alot lah...
You won! 10:33 AM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Thank You Thank You
Thank You
I want to say thank You
Jesus Thank You
Thank You, my love
The Lord of Hosts
You're me redeemer
Faithful and just
Ancient of days
You are my fortress
First and the last
Ye Shu
quan xin gan xie ni
wo ai ni
xiang dui ni shuo Ye Shu
quan xin gan xie ni
wo ai ni
ou zhu
qi miao jui zhu
ni shi fang wo
xin shi de zhu
You won! 10:04 PM
woah...
life...
haha...
I got new DrumStIcKs!!! YAY!!
my current ones look like they're gonna snap anytime soon.
but they're so seasoned..what a pity..
There was a Digital piano at Yamaha, original price was $2121.
it was on offer at $1200!!
5 sets left in the afternoon, and 1 left by 9pm.
Somebody's got a new Piano!!!
WAHAHAH!!
Now is the time to FIGHT!
ARRGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Bear behind Rachel

my boss's breakfast

my food

yummy

the new bb club opened.. i visited last week..it was so empty. this week, its full.

slippers..can't smell them..u think it stinks?

Kaiting

Isaac n anna trying to balance stress and relaxation

rachel towering

in the train
You won! 7:25 PM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone
Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight
chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight
chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life
chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall, in love, with you?
~~
haha..i think this lyrics sound fammiliar..
seems like i've thought like this before..
maybe still occasionally now..
it just brings back memories in the first 5 lines of the song..
interestingly..this song's been in my com for ages,
i'm just amazed that i actually can relate to it now..haha..
i dun feel bad or sad.. but just.. just.. fammiliar is the word.
still, its a real soothing song.. in terms of vocals, music..
nice flow of the song..
You won! 11:44 PM
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye
~~
if i had only found this song earlier.
but looking back, its very meaningful..
goodbye..
only then we can both move on.
Friday, March 10, 2006
finally.. first week of work is over..
i can say i've learnt alot..
alot about the trade of this company and my boss..
its bee really enriching..
just that i need to sleep early..
when we open the radioactive box,
we gotta run away..
and only come back about 30 seconds time..
so we don't get radio-activated?
heeheehee..
cute lah my boss...
hahaha...
man..i'm so tired out...
zzz...
You won! 7:22 PM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
EASY TERMSONLY MINE UNTIL
THE TIME COMES ROUND
TO PAY THE BILL.
THEN I'M AFRAID.
WHAT CAN'T BE PAID
MUST BE RETURNED.
YOU NEVER, EVER LEARN,
THAT NOTHING'S YOURS,
ON EASY TERMS.
ONLY FOR A TIME,
I MUST NOT LEARN,
TO CALL YOU MINE.
FAMILIARISE
THAT FACE, THOSE EYES
MAKE FUTURE PLANS
THAT CANNOT BE CONFIRMED
ON BORROWED TIME,
ON EASY TERMS.
LIVING ON THE NEVER NEVER,
CONSTANT AS THE CHANGING WEATHER,
NEVER SURE
WHO'S AT THE DOOR
OR THE PRICE I'LL HAVE TO PAY
SHOULD WE MEET AGAIN
I WILL NOT RECOGNISE YOUR NAME.
YOU CAN BE SURE
WHAT'S GONE BEFORE
WILL BE CONCEALED.
YOUR FRIENDS WILL NEVER LEARN
THAT ONCE WE WERE
ON EASY TERMS.
LIVING ON THE NEVER NEVER,
CONSTANT AS THE CHANGING WEATHER,
NEVER SURE
WHO'S AT THE DOOR
OR THE PRICE I'LL HAVE TO PAY
SHOULD WE MEET AGAIN...
YOU NEVER EVER LEARN
THAT NOTHING'S YOURS
ON EASY TERMS
LIVING ON THE NEVER NEVER,
CONSTANT AS THE CHANGING WEATHER,
NEVER SURE
WHO'S AT THE DOOR
OR THE PRICE I'LL HAVE TO PAY,
SHOULD WE MEET AGAIN
SHOULD WE MEET AGAIN
SHOULD WE MEET AGAIN
NOTHING'S EVER YOURS...
- i dunno much of what the lyrics originally mean..this is a slightly modified version..
don't hope too much on easy terms, on borrowed time... true..
its a nice song..
You won! 10:26 PM
having no free internet access at my office is starting to bother me!!
i stay the whole day there..
doing stuff...
only relating to the few people there..
i can't even blog or something during my break..
well.. my only form of communication is my handphone..
get me via there if u need me.
days are not too long actually.
i leave my boss's house at 9am
head straight for breakfast
reach office by about 1030am
lunch is served at about 1130am
coffee break at 330pm
then by 5pm we knock off..
i reach home by 530pm..
thats the life you'll have if you run your own business..
haha..
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
finished my 2nd day of work!!
33/35 more days to go..
today...
all i did was..
go for breakfast..
while we were at breakfast..
we saw a lorry drive out of a carpark lot and hit a parked car beside him on the way out..
he stopped awhile.then drove off w/o doing anything..
what a stupid fella..
witnesses were all around!!
while he stopped, we took his license number..
on the way out, we placed the slip of paper at his windscreen..
there was already another slip with his number written by another witness...
haha.. what a dumb thing to do..
if he gets caught by the police, its a hit and run case man..
say bye bye to his license..and his job as a lorry driver..
maybe a fine too, that he'll never be able to pay for the rest of his life..
we headed on to office..
we talked again,
i polished up the letterhead i was doing..
it is perfect! said boss..
did it till bout 2pm..
had lunch at 1130..
this fella cooked for us.. yummy!! good food!
i later fiddled around with the product samples..
had coffee at 3pm..
then we left for town to pass documents..
then i'm home..
by 5.30pm..
nice boss...
have more to learn and do..
so far its fun..
as for now, i have to study for my grade 5 theory exam this sat!
You won! 6:18 PM
Monday, March 06, 2006
just finished 1st day of work!
i have a great boss!
he personally picked me from jurong east mrt,
then he drove me for breakfast..
then to office.. and gave free access to the fridge!
he expained to me everything bout the company n stuff..
and brought me around to meetings,
thought me bout his product,
and treated me to yummy prawn mee for lunch...
it as a pretty free day for us..
we just talked n talked..though i did more listening..
i've done my first task.
redesigning the company letterhead.
and i have an exhibition to work towards.
i gotta plan everything..almost..
i'm startin to get a hang of the business world..
now things that my dad's been telling me is starting to make sense.
boss fetches me home too! his home i mean.. and i take a short bus trip home.
well, he's gonna pick me up again tml..but at his house..
i'd better sleep early..
thats all for now..
:)
check out
Winbiza.
You won! 10:48 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
i just got home from dinner...
dad, mom and i went out...
sis n bro didn't want to...
i went to some place in jurong,
had this chicken rice...
the rate wth they produce the chicken rice..whao man..haha
like they're millionairs...
then i went to my uncle's house..
man.. he's getting bitter bout the next door neighbour who he linked up as how he got his stroke.
we prayed for him to get better..
hoping the best for him..
through the whole time out..
i was thinking or something...
about my previous post..
i really feel like i can totally let go..
but i just feel this feeling of sadness..
another thing is that i've been coming across so many new interesting places and all that,
and i so wanna tell that person...
but i really see no way to do so..
i really gotta give space..
and i think i know how much..
but i don't exactly know..
i'll just see how things go..
probably i'll just find someone else to tell to...
see..the thing about letting go..
if i still dun let go soon,
its just gonna cause more trouble..
especially on that person and others around me and myself.
i don't want that person to suffer..
so i really gotta try mt best to let go..
the longer it lingers in me,
the harder it is for things to be okay again..
i don't want this problem to last..
ppl tell me it needs time..lots of it..
but i don't want..i wan it to go away now!!!
tml i'm going for attachment..
i'll try my best not to let anything affect me..
i'll be a good worker..
and good thing about it is i am supposed to bring my laptop along to work..
its like a comfort item..
well..after all..
i hope this person is doing well..
released from all guilt..
anyway.. i feel so distant already..
bit more to go only i think..
for me,
Smiling helps.. i think..
haha..
You won! 11:13 PM
what is with me.
i type out a whole post..
and then at the end,
i realised the situation might not actually be like that.
or the words i used have carried the wrong meaning..
or i was just thinking on a one sided view then..
moving me to write a whole post on it...
and i delete everything...
or just don't post it..
but i've learnt..no..i musn't change it.
i musn't read thru it after i've typed it..
if not i'll just change everything again..
so i decide.
i'm just gonna leave every post as it is from now on..
if i typed something..
and the next day, if didn't think i should have posted it at all,
i won't change or delete it.
i'll post another post, another time..
i guess this way makes it all better.
fix all the Points of views together..
and i get the fuller picture..
rather than deal with pieces forever.
as for now regarding that thing..
i'm settled in my mind..
i know what is and whats not..
i understand better now..
i've learnt from them..
but the one thing that still bothers me..
when i go to fammiliar places..
wheres the person that goes with me..
i feel lost..
i remember the times..
when i walked home in the rain..
i could not help but think bout it again..
i know i've gotta let go..
and i've decided to let go..
but..
but..
but..
i dunno..
it just feels as if..
i've lost the life which i once lived.
its just sad..
not as much as it used to be..
it takes time to live again..
i know.
time
time
time..
but how long..
how long..
how long..
as for now..
it still is like this..
more and more achievements in life i want,
now becomes of no value to me..
who will i share it with?
missing...
missing...
i don't want to lose a friend..
i blame it on my rash actions..
i pushed it too hard..
i took it too fast..
now everything has collapsed..
i regret..
i should have waited..
i should have obeyed..
i should have been patient..
i should have took it slow..
i should not have brought it highier so quickly.
now i've lost it all..
its my fault..
now its consequences..
i have to pay..
and its gonna take a long time..
i don't even know if i'm able to pay it all back in this lifetime.
even those around me have been in someway affected..
i screwed up..
i made a wrong decision..
i know i can be forgiven..
but the consequences seem too hard to bear..
only if i could turn time back..
but whats the use of crying over spilt milk???
milk is cheap and widely availlable..
this is not..
its beyond value, and has only 1 of it in the world.
still, crying doesnt bring it back..
nothing will..
it can only be re-created all over again...
starting from the ruins of all that is left of it.
u know how much hardwork and time it will take
and it might just never be the same as before..
i'll just have to try..
okay..i know this post might sound like i'm depressed.
i'm not..
i'm actually just sad..
from the regret of a major mistake..
and what troubles me is its future..
what is with me.
i type out a whole post..
and then at the end,
i realised the situation might not actually be like that.
or the words i used have carried the wrong meaning..
or i was just thinking on a one sided view then..
moving me to write a whole post on it...
and i delete everything...
or just don't post it..
but i've learnt..no..i musn't change it.
i musn't read thru it after i've typed it..
if not i'll just change everything again..
so i decide.
i'm just gonna leave every post as it is from now on..
if i typed something..
and the next day, if didn't think i should have posted it at all,
i won't change or delete it.
i'll post another post, another time..
i guess this way makes it all better.
fix all the Points of views together..
and i get the fuller picture..
rather than deal with pieces forever.
as for now regarding that thing..
i'm settled in my mind..
i know what is and whats not..
i understand better now..
i've learnt from them..
but the one thing that still bothers me..
when i go to fammiliar places..
wheres the person that goes with me..
i feel lost..
i remember the times..
when i walked home in the rain..
i could not help but think bout it again..
i know i've gotta let go..
and i've decided to let go..
but..
but..
but..
i dunno..
it just feels as if..
i've lost the life which i once lived.
its just sad..
not as much as it used to be..
it takes time to live again..
i know.
time
time
time..
but how long..
how long..
how long..
as for now..
it still is like this..
more and more achievements in life i want,
now becomes of no value to me..
who will i share it with?
missing...
missing...
i don't want to lose a friend..
i blame it on my rash actions..
i pushed it too hard..
i took it too fast..
now everything has collapsed..
i regret..
i should have waited..
i should have obeyed..
i should have been patient..
i should have took it slow..
i should not have brought it highier so quickly.
now i've lost it all..
its my fault..
now its consequences..
i have to pay..
and its gonna take a long time..
i don't even know if i'm able to pay it all back in this lifetime.
even those around me have been in someway affected..
i screwed up..
i made a wrong decision..
i know i can be forgiven..
but the consequences seem too hard to bear..
only if i could turn time back..
but whats the use of crying over spilt milk???
milk is cheap and widely availlable..
this is not..
its beyond value, and has only 1 of it in the world.
still, crying doesnt bring it back..
nothing will..
it can only be re-created all over again...
starting from the ruins of all that is left of it.
u know how much hardwork and time it will take
and it might just never be the same as before..
i'll just have to try..
okay..i know this post might sound like i'm depressed.
i'm not..
i'm actually just sad..
from the regret of a major mistake..
and what troubles me is its future..
i shall reply the tags here...
so i can type more..haha
haha..thanks guys.. thanks for upholding me..
i seriously fell and had my face smack right into the gravel..
i got injured and didn't know if i could go on again..
but thanks to those around me who helped me up..
and i realised that the fall wasn't that bad after all..
i'm now limping on ahead..
i'll soon be able to run properly again when the injuries heal totally..
as for now, i'm still in the race!!
i saw the finishing line again..
i see my side-runner has fallen abit and slightly injured too..
not too bad i hope..
but theres nothing much i can really do to help now..
i just can't..
i can only hope..
hope for that someone to stand up..
and run along as fast as you can too..
see the end..
never give up!!
u will make it!
someday...till then....
for now, i've learnt how to run better..
learnt abit more about having a side-runner....
bit more bout how to run together properly..
i'm still learning..
"a righteous man may fall seven times, but he will rise up again"
for now, i'm gonna run a slightly different style..
it leads me on to the real world..
bringing the fire and light into the cold dark cruel world..
but still side by side the hot fire burning flame God's family..
life has 8 elements..
1.mental
2.emotional
3.spiritual
4.physical
5.financial
6.social
7.family
8.and something else..
-from my beloved daddy.
i'm gonna have to evaluate whats lacking in these n balance them all out.
And i'm now being mentored by someone...
i'm moving on...
plus what i really will try to achieve from now on...
bit by bit..
- get my music theory grading.
- piano grading
- guitar grading
- drums grading
- driving license
- powerboat license
- learn how to cook dinner
maybe,
- aircraft license
- helicopter license
and few other "secret" ones.. haha
well.. i really dunno how long it'll all take..
still try anyway..haha..
for now..sunday's my last day to have fun and enjoy..
before my industrial attachment starts...
i'll be working 9-6 daily.
i've a good supervisor.
he wants to pick me up on my first day to work.
i'm supposed to bring my laptop..
he's planned for me go do marketing..
i think he's a good guy..
looking forward to be working with him.
gonna enjoy myself...
haha...
as such..
no more yusof cell's for the next 7 weeks.
no more weekday afternoon bible studies..
alot lah.....
haha..how ah like that?
i dunno..tml then think...
haha...
i just had a nice chat with dad at a riverside bar..
i learnt alot..
he knows me better now..
we're happier..
i hope to know him more and
tell him more bout myself..
Some pics..
This is a common sight in Isaac's room.

Mr. Cow now sits on my table..acting as a hp holder occasionally.
MooOOooOooo.....

My New haircut..

this standing hair really lasts...not very long...give it 2hrs and its down..
the only time i get this hair style is after i cut my hair. haha.
so must take photo..

this is the car dad's driving now.
Mazda 6 Sport! 2litres.. cool!
the music gets louder at 20km/h and at 50km/h it gets louder again..
haha..style hor.... and this car powerful...shiok..gets to 110 easily..
very comfortable inside.

heres some pics i was supposed to post a long time ago..
but i think wasnt in the mood to then..haha..
This is the robot i built in school.

this is the scenery from out my window on a half rainy day

The last train home!! this was after Pst.Ulf's friday night service!

Romantic garden path at Esplanade.haha..
everybody else(w330) were busy dating with the stones. hahaha...

okay..i'd better sleep now..
have church tml..
gotta wake up at 715 later!!
thats in about 5hr time..haha..hope i can wake up in time..