Tuesday, June 26, 2007
multiplying? is that all you're concerned about? you say its about souls. but do your actions show it? you're trying so hard to ask me things. you say you understand what i'm going through. but you really dont know me, you wouldn't understand. trust me. you just want to get things done don't you? want to get results don't you? if that's all you're concerned about, i'm afraid you'll never trully understand why things are going wrong. You'll have all sorts of activities, pushing to making things happen, but you'll only be getting the new and losing the old. please find back your main focus, your main reason for existence. If not, scram. You will want me to feedback, then you'll leave me alone to die doing it. I've been there before, so don't fool me once again. the fact is that you're not even asking for feedback. You're just giving me information and wanting my attendance and cooperation. Why should I waste my time? remember ROI? to me, you're extremely low.
sound's emo right. actually i'm not very much bothered by it. life goes on. I still love Jesus. i don't hate them. just their methods.
I worked till 4am lastnight, woke up at 2pm, and worked till 4pm. haha. busy man? still have projects to do man. and elearning tutorials.
Went to town with Dad, Mom n Sis, met with Ken and Cindy later on.
I really want to buy clothes. after what Cindy and Ken said, i don't dare to buy anything anymore. because what i thought was nice, wasn't nice to them. and because 2 to 1, i still lose. So how? I've walked for 2 days, and not buying a single piece of clothing, and spending the money on food instead. Its not helping at all.
There are so many things i like. but I don't buy them. I think I can really spend if I have the money. but I care for my parents. but then I either end up with cheap stuff or nothing. how? I think the only thiing they allow me to spend on without questioning is food. And they remind me that I have a HUGE tummy. Yea, I do. and worse, I can't fit so many clothes now! Thats why I need to buy. But at my current rate of buying, i'll not have enough time to study, and work. Then how do i get income? maybe i should just focus on earning money, then hire a fashion consultant to buy my clothes and style my hair. Now's the GSS, and still, everything's expensive to me. how? maybe i should just BUY. nope. i will not waste money. I need to change my mindset. if not i'll never buy anything, but just end up fat from food. because it'll be the only thing that i buy.
You won! 11:00 PM
