Sunday, March 05, 2006
i just got home from dinner...
dad, mom and i went out...
sis n bro didn't want to...
i went to some place in jurong,
had this chicken rice...
the rate wth they produce the chicken rice..whao man..haha
like they're millionairs...
then i went to my uncle's house..
man.. he's getting bitter bout the next door neighbour who he linked up as how he got his stroke.
we prayed for him to get better..
hoping the best for him..
through the whole time out..
i was thinking or something...
about my previous post..
i really feel like i can totally let go..
but i just feel this feeling of sadness..
another thing is that i've been coming across so many new interesting places and all that,
and i so wanna tell that person...
but i really see no way to do so..
i really gotta give space..
and i think i know how much..
but i don't exactly know..
i'll just see how things go..
probably i'll just find someone else to tell to...
see..the thing about letting go..
if i still dun let go soon,
its just gonna cause more trouble..
especially on that person and others around me and myself.
i don't want that person to suffer..
so i really gotta try mt best to let go..
the longer it lingers in me,
the harder it is for things to be okay again..
i don't want this problem to last..
ppl tell me it needs time..lots of it..
but i don't want..i wan it to go away now!!!
tml i'm going for attachment..
i'll try my best not to let anything affect me..
i'll be a good worker..
and good thing about it is i am supposed to bring my laptop along to work..
its like a comfort item..
well..after all..
i hope this person is doing well..
released from all guilt..
anyway.. i feel so distant already..
bit more to go only i think..
for me,
Smiling helps.. i think..
haha..
You won! 11:13 PM