Saturday, September 17, 2005
YEAH!! they are over for this term! and i'm back on my blog again!! haha! man..i've had 4 papers. from 13-16sept, tues to friday! well..lets talk abit bout the studying part. first..
Microeconomics. That took me 2 weeks before. i decided to start gearing up for my exams. and decided to start with that. since it was the first. but all the while i tried, i actually wasnt able to..i ended up doin other things..i wonder why? hmm..well..so sunday came, without much progress..finally monday.. the last day before exam starts! and i still haven went through the first few chapters of the whole subject! and i din understand before! so i had to set my determination, to at least finish learning through ALL before i allowed myself to sleep. and so i did manage to finish..only to sleep about 3 to 4 am. Thanks to Liqing who lent me the notes, it was nicely highligeted and detailed and had all that was needed. still, understand all of it was a totally different thing! well.. there i had to really pray and depend on God to give me understanding. there was this sets of graphs and graphs that during all the lessons in school i couldn't understand. but it was then i cried out to God, that night alone, i understood all the graphs! God is GREAT eh!! and Glory to God! He was around me through the whole time! and Boy did i manage to finish it, catch some good sleep, and i actually was able to do most of, if not almost all the questions the next day! i was astounded! well, it was another Victory of God!
Btw, my friend Liling actually smsed me and called me in the morning to ask me some stuff, and by that time, i was so soaked up with the subject that i pretended to be wide awake in my voice, though i was actually more asleep..haha..and i answered her questions! perfect! she understood in 1 reply. and bye bye..and i slept..haha..intersting eh...
That however was short lived. It hit me real hard, after the first paper, that i actually haven studied any of the rest of the papers!!! Oh No! and actually i came to realise when i started studying...that the second paper was the most difficult of them all! Disaster! got worked out that day, that i kinda turned away from God, got discouraged and kinda tried to ignore the need to study, it was such immense stress that i quickly went to somewhere else to do something instead.. i went online on msn to chat! Lol! trying to escape from my problems. well. soon i had no choice too..time was getting late, and i still haven studied, though i already took out my
BUSINESS STATISTICS materials and laid them out on my bed, all ready to start. but it wasnt till about past 8 or 10 that i actually started, and oh boy, it was the disaster of disaster! twice as hard as the previous day's paper, and less than half as much time spent studying! that was so super agonising. this was a year 1 subject, and if i failed this subject, i would have to retake it, and means that i would have taken 2 years in total just to complete my first year subjects in poly! I COULDN'T FAIL AT ALL COSTS!!! so i just started studying like that, and prayed to God. "Help me!" boy, it was torturous man! i didn't exactly liked the whole subject, neither did i bother to do much of the class homework and go for some of the lectures. Thankfully i did go for alot of the letures, unlike other modules.. haha.. this was the lecture subject that i actually learnt stuff somehow, and i knew i HAD to Go. so i went. it did help me quite abit, as i went through the notes that night, alot of the lectures and what i learnt there came back to memory. and Mrs Lang! hha! all her "cute" was to teach and i think this was the only lecture that people actually REALLY participated in because of that, and respected her! so then, back to my agonizing time, i was trying to understnand, there was so much so much things. not just could i do away with reading thru and getting the idea, i would be actually given 3 formula sheets, all pretty similar frmulas, but VERY different stuff, and they all had their own lovely signs which all carried a meaning! like wads A, what's Z, what's X, What's B, What's C and all that, without knowing all these, i would not be able to use the formulas at all! and another thing was, i needed to know what the formula meant and which information from the question would be the ones that fit into the formula to get the answer! say it was kinda easy..but not really though... so i had to go through also 1 chapter by 1 chapter, understanding before i allowed myself to go on to the next. if i didn't know one, it could be it, and i lose the marks, and dats it! and i kept feeling like i was sure to fail..sure to fail.. but i fought HARD AGAINST THAT stupid idiotic thought in my mind that must have been put there by satan! and so i had no choice, it was already3 or 4 am, i was only halfway through everything, and i kept thinking i would fail. wads more, i felt that what i had just gone through, i din really remember after i went on to the next!!!!!!! there it was, the last glimmer of hope, there was nowhere else i could turn to, to continue, or to give up and just take another 6 months, further more i was thinking if i put so much effort on this paper, it might affect the other 2 behind, causing more trouble! (This paper would end at 4pm the next day, and the next paper the following day was at 9am! meant that i had to wake up by 730! and say i was already sleep deprived, i needed at least a normal day's sleep of say 8 hours! counting back, it would be that i had to sleep by 1130. from comin back home after this bstats paper till sleep time would only be 6 hours, what about dinner time? what about other things i had to do?!) Well, but still i ruled out that it was more important to pass this paper, and that i knew, God Wouldn't let me down through these hard times. God says, "I will never leave you nor forsake you", it also says, "He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world", : be anxious for nothing, but in prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving. Let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will gurad you hearts and minds through Christ Jesus", "your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit" and i also knoew that "the Holy Spirit teaches concerning ALL things" and through this i knew God was in me and with me to help me! further more, the Holy Spirit was sent to us as a The Helper! so with all these in my mind, i prayed out loud, cried out loud, begged and pleeded with God with all that i was worth! and there i felt God come and fill me up with strength and refreshing again!
Then after awhile, i realised, as i was takingpeeks at the clock now and then as i studied, the clock was actually, really, MOVING REALLY FAST! i dunno how it did that also! it was REALLY FAST! like i turned n looked, then studied, then looked, 45mins had passed!!!! like oh no! then i nearly broke down. i told the clock, "PLEAsseeeeeeee.. i beg you,.....dun go so fast......go slower can...." but still it did the same thing time and again. fed up, i realised i had no choice, i just had to study on. Pretty soon, it was 5 plus, then 6 plus, then my family had started to wake up, get prepared and went off to school. then the sun rose! i had been studying from before they slept till after they had woken up! and still studied.. breakfast came to my bed, i was so tempted to lie down and sleep. everytime i slid down to the pillow, i'd start to wander off to dreamland, and i had to shake myself up again, and continue studying. boy was is a tough time. i was smsing my friend the night before, and the next morning, she was already in school, leson had started, it was 8plus, and she replied! and started a little conversation again about some stuff!there my friend said, "at least u must sleep, it'll help u to be fresher later". i didn't think i'd be able to sleep at all! but well..there was a point there. i had to sleep, nomatter what, for awhile at least! and yet another friend had reminded me bout sleeping the night before, and then my mother came in and said i'd better. and she brought breakfast and essence of chicken. well..that was enough. so i decided i would sleep later. thinkin of those bosses n ceo that take power naps? haha.
it was then i came to another stage, i was still worried bout passing! and i just took my guitar and started praising God! Thanking God, and then later worshipping Him for awhile, and that's how i actually managed to tame the clock's speed. it actually slowed down! haha! in a way.. so then i really totally put it all into God's hands, and i retured to study! It wouldn't be untill 11 am or so that i actually slept. by then, i had to wake up at 1pm latest. so i set the gigantic alarm clock to 30mins earlier, and i told God to wake me up! haha.. i did manage to in the end! finally!!! the whole thing was gone through, there were still stuff i didn;t know! but it was too late. i just slept.
The paper itself was wow man..2 compulsory questions, the other 3, choose 2. each question 25 marks. i realised qn 5 i totally didn't study that, cos it was too much already! so i took 1 2 3 4. 1-3 were pretty applicable for me! most of what i studied came out from my brain! haha..but qn 4 was not too good.. i was guessing how to do the whoole question as i didn;t know anything at all about it.
Passing criteria? for my previous tests, i managed to do such that i failed, but by 2 marks. so this time i would have to get enough i order to cover up for those lost, and i certain felt like i did manage to at meast make it a pass...Well, who did all this? not really me. Without God, i'd have failed. totally.
phew, thats a pretty long report on that one subject, but really, it was the most crucial the most stressing, and the most bonding i had with God. In times of tribulations we learn to treasure God more, grow more spiritually and close to Him. It certainly was! Being through tough times aint that bad after all i learnt! in fact, becomming like paul abit, i'm starting to think of delighting in tribulations..haha..but still abut pessimistic..haha.
Next, Human Resource Management. I won't go much into detail, but basically i didn't have enough time, due to the time conditions i explained earlier. this was the only second year module i was having an exam for. and i thought it was easy. but well..it proved not to be. it wasnearly 2 times the content and difficulty of those modules in year1. I managed through God's favor and strength too. slept at 5am after finishing it, and woke at 7 plus to go for the paper. came home and boom. slept.
Last, OB. more or less the same as HRM. this time i was complacent, and started studying only at 11pm. online i was chatting with Patience, my classmate and sharing tips and what would come out and encouragin each other. then we both mugged. and realised that Xinyi was also online mugging that time(i heard from her later she actually din sleep at all! power) and i think jack was also there. online discussing while seriously mugging. i finally slept at 5 plus again, and this time was too overworked to wake up in time, i woke up late, rushed down to school by my dad, and sat down 5 mins after the paper started. but i finished 15 mins before the total time, and that was the end of all the exams!!
Glory be to God!
Credits:
God, for being beside me and bringing me through!
Mom, for always bringing essence of chicken and food!
Dad, for driving me to school every morning!
All my friends who were with me, encouraged me, and fought the "war" together with me!
Btw, i was actually shocked when my dad or mom came home one day, carrying a plastic bag or 2 or 3 cartons of Essence of Chicken, while at home there was already about2 or 3 boxes? abundance! different brands, Eu Yan Sang, Brands, and another one i can't remember! haha.
That's all for the Exam Story! hope u enjoyed it? haha.
You won! 6:30 PM
